So I guess I just kind of blew off this tumblr for a while. I assumed it was just silly. But somehow I gained three followers.
Update time:
Sometimes I feel like I’m just in autopilot. With all the things happening around me. I just refuse to react to them at all times. I mean lately I’ve been frustrated. With school, because I’m way behind with my procrastination and I cannot for the life of me find interest in my classes that I have this semester. I need summer break already. I need to clear my mind. Then there’s my part time job. Which I bust my ass at. And everything I do never gets appreciated. If I left, my boss couldn’t give less of a shit. And I recently stopped talking to the guy I was interested in. It was going no where and he didn’t really care. Which sucks frankly. I mean I’m not crying over it, I gave it up. It’s just like I don’t know disappointing. In less than two days I have that procedure coming up about HPV. I’m a bit freaked out. My mother and I had a huge fight about it because she wanted to be in the room during the procedure and I’m not comfortable with that. It’s my choice anyway with me being legal. She for the most part has been very destructive about this, making me feel like a bad person. And then like a week and half ago a friend of mine confessed that he planned on saving up for a shot gun to kill himself with. I cried. I was so upset. I mean life can be so shitty at this point in our life… but I don’t understand why people see the need to end their life. You’re not alone. There is professional help. And somewhere out there has gone through something similar to have you have. I just wish people could find more strength. Life is so stressful lately. I just get high and drunk lately to just numb the world.
